Love is in the Air... HOW?

Wrote this awhile ago in my dairy... thought it was good enough to post on here!

This morning was quite a relaxing and lazy morning... I started the day off cooking breakfast and reading, "The Shack". After breakfast and a little mommy/Mylah time...I watched Fireproof.

"Always Remember...A woman is like a Rose... You show her love and compassion, she will bloom. If you don't, she'll wilt."

Sitting there on my couch, comfy with the blanket "Santa Barbara" gave me for Christmas and a pint of "Ben and Jerry's". I can't help but realize my love-life could almost be that movie. I was Catherine, a woman so feed-up with trying to love a man, not wanting to love her. I could understand her hatred towards Caleb. Her lack of faith toward love itself. Then halfway through the movie I lumped myself in with those women gossiping behind Catherine's back and telling her to let go. I wanted her marriage to be over and I wanted reality to take effect. The idea of what "we" as society think about marriage... It's nothing more than just a paper. "Till death do us part" Yeah right... it's more like, till I find something better! Then as I sit there really evaluating my attitude and my bitterness, I noticed that Love in English is confusing. We don't understand love because love, the meaning is so lacking!
Think about it... when we say love... what do we mean?

Our Meaning of LOVE

Love "Man I love the Cowboys!"
Love "I just love how those two colors look together."
Love "I love eating at Scrath!"Love "I love you Mommy!"
Love "I will love you till death do us part!"
LOVE "Jesus LOVES you!"

In first century Jew time, when they talked about love... love meant many different things. Actually there were many different kinds of love
Hebrew Word:
Ahab Spontaneous - impulsive love
Hesed Deliberate choice of affection and kindness
Rahan To have compassion - brotherly love (Friendship love)
Greek Words:
Eros Sensual, Erotic, Sexual, Impulsive Love (What Hollywood portrays love to be!)
philia The love you have toward your spouse, children and friends
Agape divine, unconditional, self-sacrificing, active, volitional, and thoughtful love (no one really can understand this love because this love is what Jesus did for us on the cross)

Can you see where the confusion comes into play. Love was such an important thing that it had many different meanings. Love is huge and important to define. Love is not just a word that should be thrown out like it was candy, at a 4th of July parade. It seems like everyone these days takes love for granted because we just don't really grasp what it is. So the next time you tell someone, "I love you!" Really grasp what your saying... because LOVE is something more amazing than just a little four letter word you can hand out. It's GOD's gift to us!!So use it wisely!!!! AND PROTECT YOUR HEART.. that's where love lies!

The lastest Disease... And I caught it!

Tonight I found myself talking with some "new potentials" about life. Mostly it was Christina's way of getting to know the doctors and lets be real... I wanted to know who was single. Well, everything was going honky-dory. We were laughing, having a great old time. I was being cute and working the moves of "incognito" flirt signals. Then this female doctor came into the conversation, NICE ... this is what we call in the single world, a penis blocker (some call it a more vulgar word, but that's not my style)

Well, she joins in the conversation and this is the exact moment where the "fun life stories" talk turned into family and kids strictly (per female doc... argh). So here we all are sharing our family details. Now everyone in the group is married but two of us. When this fact is mentioned/discovered ... Mrs. Penis Blocker...looks at me and says, "SO your one of those!" A little taken back by what she was implying... I asked... "One of those, what?"

Anyone that knows me, knows I'm pretty cool when it comes to people that are judgemental and can typically keep my cool. However this lady, I don't know why.. maybe it was the smug look or the condesending attitude she spoke with but I wanted to slap her. So in anticipation of her response... my other single partner in the group pipes up... "SINGLE" as he looks at me smiling!

I couldn't believe it.. when did singlehood become an epidemic. Then when did single women become something Married women hated. How am I the enemy to married women? Now praying under my breathe and really just trying to look past her arrogant ways. I found myself shaking my head saying, "It's always interesting to me, how married women like you, spend hours worried about me sleeping with your husband and no time worrying about your husband's needs! Maybe if you were more worried about those needs your husband has and less time worried about my skills in the bedroom... You know, I don't think I would be a threat to you because then... you would know... Your shit Rocks! Plus... I have more class then to mess around with a married man."

After saying something like that, everyone knows that you have to exit the conversation very smoothly and confident to keep your coolness and "awe" factor... however being Christina... what do I do... I straight trip on the chair and fall to my face. Totally mortified and knowing everyone was staring at me. I realized God was humbling me right there!!! It was my moment to calm the air. I looked at the married woman stating, "Come on... that sucked as a "cool" exit! AND really? Are you threatened by me?" She laughed but I could tell, she was still mad at me. Hey... I can't always be pleasing and prefect but I TRY!

The Penis Stratching Post... ME?

This Friday, I spent an amazing night with Jenn tearing up downtown Spokane and then... Goodtymes. Now while we were downtown, we ran into a lot of people that I knew or had known. Jenn, of course ran into one or two men not sure how to handle her. Guys around my sexy Jenn, get a little funny. They get bashful and shy and loose every sense of coolness they thought they had. Jenn... she loves it. Actually I think her sexy goes up a couple more notches with each guy that blushes just looking at her; however, Saturday Jenn met a challenge.

So here we are at O'Doherty's, drinking, laughing and having a gay old time. Mostly "the Jenn" was making little jokes about my attraction to older men or as Jenn likes to say it... "Older Meat!" Well, as we were sitting there, I notice this young guy sitting next to me. He was almost in tears and making this horrid noise after each sip of his drink. Now looking at his drinking in front of him, to the untrained eye (or mine), it looked like some girlie poofy drink. The guy informed me that I was way wrong. It had 7 different hard liqours (Jamenson being one) and a splash of cranberry for color. It sounded nasty... Jenn noticing an opportunity to flirt a little. She jumps on board and uses me as a telephone line to her newest victum. Poor guy didn't know what hit him.... Well, after about 15 lines back and forth... all through christina the newest form of telephoning. The guy found himself blushing, giggling and really lost for words. The Jenn had won and the guy left smiling but reluctant to let Jenn out of his sight. It was funny.

We left O'Doherty's after a few drinks and went to Jimmy'z for a little dancing. Jimmy'z was packed and the bouncer wouldn't let people in. He was hand picking people from the line that he found "worthy". Five people where chosen when Jenn and me got there and we were one of the selected five. Made some people not so happy, seeing they had been waiting for a who knows how long. However, after coming to the conclusion that being pushed, touched and grabbed in "unaccidental" ways from strangers... we decided that Goodtymes would be our next hot spot.

Now when we drive out to Goodtymes, we laugh because we both know that right when we hit the door, we'll hear some flashback to some 80s one-hit wonder song. Even though we know this, we both also know that Goodtymes is always good for a "good time"; however, this time, Goodtymes didn't have a band playing. Actually Goodtymes wasn't the bar we both use to remember. It was full of people dancing to a DJ playing some HipHop song that was recent. Now... I didn't know the song, but Jenn did. So we made a bee line to the floor after getting another drink. Here we are... dancing, laughing and just having a blast. Now some how I was giving off the vibe that I wanted a partner and this very good looking black guy come up behind me. At that moment, I didn't realize it but this guy had the idea of making me "the Penis Stratching Post".

Now a couple of you might be asking... "Christina, what is a Penis Stratching Post?"

Well, glad you asked... let me enlighten you...

It's when a guy comes up behind a girl and rubs his "member" all up on your booty. It almost reminds me of a bear when they use a tree to stratch their backs. It's like these guys forgot the proper way of cleansing themselves and now have an itch they need help getting at. Then for some crazy reason... I look around the bar and realize that "we" (the girls) are competing against each other for just the chance to be a "Penis Stratching Post". ohhh.. if only those women that fought for women rights, would of seen us NOW... "We" would have done them proud! (sarcasm to the fullest!)

I am standing my ground from here on out... I will No longer Be or Accept the role as some stranger's "Penis Stratching Post"; however, if he's my man... I'd better be the only Stratching Post in his life and you better believe, I'll be the best "Penis Stratching Post" he ever had!

Side Note: Last night at Sushi with Jenn,

CHRISTINA: "Why do you think we allow ourselves to be "Penis Stratching Posts'?"

JENN: "Want to hear something deep? It's because we allow ourselves to be "Penis Stratching Posts"!

I love that girl!