So let's break it down...
In about 8 hours, if not less... I will be in a classroom falling asleep probably because I lacked the better judgement of writing my paper and then sleep! NO.... I decided to write a BLOG! What can I say... when my mind starts going... It's off on the ride of ideas that I just have to share with the world.
Things that brought some new insight on my world...
"What makes us human is not our mind but our heart, not our ability to think but our ability to love." Henri Nouwen
When I read this, it brought me back to a NICU room with my friend Tammy. I there to meet beautiful Gabby. Tammy's preemie baby girl born with Gastroschisis, otherwise known as the "inside out baby" disease. At first sight, I found my sympathetic words for grief, over-taking the blessings that should of been coming out of my mouth in my "I'm so happy for you" speech. I found it hard to understand how any mother could feel like this is blessing. I found it hard to understand how Tammy felt. I really felt sorry for both Tammy and Gabby, so much that I found it hard to be around. Sad... I know. However, at Gabby's first birthday... That little girl taught me so much about life. As I sat there watching this amazing family, who just a couple years earlier, found it hard to talk to each other because drugs, fighting and everything else the world sends in to destroy families... This little Gabby, who in the eyes of the world had more disabilities than abilities, brought a family back to life. She saved a mother from herself, a father from himself and a grandmother. This little pint size version of my Tammy, brought me to my knees asking for forgiveness. Gabby became more than those disabilities in my eyes, she became that beautiful little baby every mother would love to have.
In a recent Blog of Tammy's... she wrote
SO, I AM A VERY PROUD MOTHER. MY DAUGHTER IS 26 MONTHS OLD, SHE IS THE LOVE OF MY LIFE, EVERYTHING GOOD IN LIFE I SEE WHEN I LOOK AT HER. SHE HAS MULTIPLE DISABILITIES BUT SHE IS STILL THE BEST BABY THAT I COULD EVER ASK FOR. SHE IS ALWAYS SO HAPPY AND LAUGHS AT NOTHING OR MAYBE EVERYTHING. MY DAUGHTER HAS TAUGHT ME THE MEANING OF HAPPINESS!!!
Now Tammy and me have been through so much together. When my mom throw me out of my house at 16, Tammy's and her family opened their house to me as a home. We did everything together, from stalking boys ~ to ~ staying at home watching movies. We were the typical "Yogie Bear and Boo Boo" duo. She became the sister I never had and I loved her for the craziness she brought out in me; however, Tammy only stood at a height of 5.2 (she'd say something like 5.2 and 3/4, if you ask her) but even though she was literally almost a foot shorter than me. She's the biggest person I know. She might be 5.2 but in my eyes... she is more like 10 feet tall. I learn so much through her and Gabby.
So when I read that little statement, I couldn't help but go back to that moment... when I myself realized. A person isn't a person because of what they can do or have... a person is a person only by what they can offer the world in joy, happiness and servant hood. That smile on Gabby's face, no money or PhD could not bring as much joy to the world as she does!
I love you Tammy. Give Gabby a kiss for me and thank you.
In about 6 hours, I should be waking up to get ready for class.
In about 7 hours, I will be turning in a paper that I have yet to even start.In about 8 hours, if not less... I will be in a classroom falling asleep probably because I lacked the better judgement of writing my paper and then sleep! NO.... I decided to write a BLOG! What can I say... when my mind starts going... It's off on the ride of ideas that I just have to share with the world.
Things that brought some new insight on my world...
"What makes us human is not our mind but our heart, not our ability to think but our ability to love." Henri Nouwen
When I read this, it brought me back to a NICU room with my friend Tammy. I there to meet beautiful Gabby. Tammy's preemie baby girl born with Gastroschisis, otherwise known as the "inside out baby" disease. At first sight, I found my sympathetic words for grief, over-taking the blessings that should of been coming out of my mouth in my "I'm so happy for you" speech. I found it hard to understand how any mother could feel like this is blessing. I found it hard to understand how Tammy felt. I really felt sorry for both Tammy and Gabby, so much that I found it hard to be around. Sad... I know. However, at Gabby's first birthday... That little girl taught me so much about life. As I sat there watching this amazing family, who just a couple years earlier, found it hard to talk to each other because drugs, fighting and everything else the world sends in to destroy families... This little Gabby, who in the eyes of the world had more disabilities than abilities, brought a family back to life. She saved a mother from herself, a father from himself and a grandmother. This little pint size version of my Tammy, brought me to my knees asking for forgiveness. Gabby became more than those disabilities in my eyes, she became that beautiful little baby every mother would love to have.
In a recent Blog of Tammy's... she wrote
SO, I AM A VERY PROUD MOTHER. MY DAUGHTER IS 26 MONTHS OLD, SHE IS THE LOVE OF MY LIFE, EVERYTHING GOOD IN LIFE I SEE WHEN I LOOK AT HER. SHE HAS MULTIPLE DISABILITIES BUT SHE IS STILL THE BEST BABY THAT I COULD EVER ASK FOR. SHE IS ALWAYS SO HAPPY AND LAUGHS AT NOTHING OR MAYBE EVERYTHING. MY DAUGHTER HAS TAUGHT ME THE MEANING OF HAPPINESS!!!
Now Tammy and me have been through so much together. When my mom throw me out of my house at 16, Tammy's and her family opened their house to me as a home. We did everything together, from stalking boys ~ to ~ staying at home watching movies. We were the typical "Yogie Bear and Boo Boo" duo. She became the sister I never had and I loved her for the craziness she brought out in me; however, Tammy only stood at a height of 5.2 (she'd say something like 5.2 and 3/4, if you ask her) but even though she was literally almost a foot shorter than me. She's the biggest person I know. She might be 5.2 but in my eyes... she is more like 10 feet tall. I learn so much through her and Gabby.
So when I read that little statement, I couldn't help but go back to that moment... when I myself realized. A person isn't a person because of what they can do or have... a person is a person only by what they can offer the world in joy, happiness and servant hood. That smile on Gabby's face, no money or PhD could not bring as much joy to the world as she does!
I love you Tammy. Give Gabby a kiss for me and thank you.
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