The Ocean of Love

When you think about the ocean... you think fish, surfers, seagulls... For me... I think waves and sounds. I think amazing power and freedom. The ocean is the one thing man will never conquer. We will never be able to tell the ocean what to do and even though, Walt Disney glorified King Triton in Little Mermaid as the ruler of the sea. Everyone knows... the ocean is always in control of its own actions. So when Pastor Vaughn told us in our Get Bit class to go and become one with the ocean. The ocean represented God's Love for us.

I still found it hard to let go. The idea of swimming out into nothing, not knowing where I was going or how far I would actually be able to make it before taking on water, basically... I didn't want to give up my control of the circumstances (my life). I didn't want to let myself be over taken by this vast body of water. I didn't want to be become one with the ocean, which is so weird for me to admit because I love God. I want to be one of His children and I know that I am... so why in the world would it be so hard for me to just let go and accept the fact that I am in HIS LOVE. I don't know but today... God being totally amazing... gave me the sermon on this.

See... every time I would go out into the ocean, I was going out there to get away from the world. To be freed of the million titles that I have here on earth. To be freed of the expectations everyone and their mom has on me. I wasn't going out there because I wanted to be one of God, but to be hidden from the world. God stopped me though... I was going to Him in the wrong manner. I was going to Him with the Goal of freeing myself of duties.

When Jesus spoke in His short ministry, he talked about Serving and Loving. Those two things are the heart of Jesus. Those two things was what I was running from. Lately, I am guilty of doing work because I know it has to be done. I'm one of those people that if I see a need, I will jump on it. I won't ask who suppose to do this or if someone is planning on doing this... I just do it. That's what gets the job done and we can move on to something else. In that train of thought of mine, just get it done....No glory in that moment is given to God at all but in fairness, I don't ask for glory either. I just want to get the job done.

My issue, I seem to limit God on His works. I think the little mundane things here on earth, like house chorus or doing the laundry... are things God can't use. When in fact, those are moments He works on me. I need to learn that even in the times where I seem to be doing nothing in my mind... I am doing for God. This is my purpose here on earth.