The Tears Don't Seem to Stop!

Lately, I have been feeling like God has been telling me to let go of somethings and some people in my life. Some of the stuff and people, I have some tight grips around. Some amazing and even some bad things are in those things that I need to lay down at God's feet. It's been one of the hardest things, I have ever gone through. The reality of this whole time in my life is... A Season Of Silence! This is my time with God. I have offically become one of those bible thumpers I use to make fun of in high school! Yes, you read that right!

No friends around and not because I don't try too get together with them. I do. I just have so much going on and my heart with God is changing so much lately, it's Overwhelming!!!!!!! Funny thing, I have peace about everything going on in my life, which I know is God working OVERTIME!

Tonight thought, I did something that was really hard. I had to let go of the amazing Superman in my life! God's been working on my heart of obedience like crazy and God kept telling me, "Christina, I need you to let go of Andy so I can make Andy amazing in ME!" Being selfish, I have been really ignoring that call but tonight. God made it very loud and clear... "CHRISTINA IT'S TIME!" I am not going to lie, as I wrote that email to Andy down in Mexico. Expressing my heart and what I've been told. I was pissed and mad at God. However, God told me the right things to say and both, Andy and me, are being told the same thing. We both are getting told right now is our time with God. Who knows what the future holds for both of us, but right now... I'm God's Daughter and He is polishing me up for something amazing!

It's going to take a couple anger prayers and a lot of tears to really appreciate what God is doing in both of our live's but I trust my Lord.

Now some might be asking, Why? Why do you think that God would make you give your Superman? Why after all this time?

I have no idea, but I have to keep in mind and KNOW... God is my ultimate planner for my life and whatever GOD thinks is important for me to have or need... HE will provide and no one else, not even myself!!! Something I am still battling with!!! I honestly believe with all my heart, God knows best for me... even through all these tears! Sometimes being compliment is the worst feeling in the world. I love Andy. I pray now and will always pray for that man and his family. God has amazing plans for my superman and I don't think our full season is over... just right now, it's on a pause session. I need to get closer to my creator and Ulimate Father and Lover! That is my only plan right now!!!