I'm a Promise... Now that is cool!

In Church today, Pastor Vaughn discussed the idea of being a promise, which to me was a little hard for me to understand at first. Me... Christina... A promise for someone in the past. The more he talked and/or preached... the more I started to realize, I was a promise. How many times in our lives, did someone pray for us and make a deal with God that your life would be effected. In my life, there are plenty of moments where I can see my mom, who doesn't really pray at all... I could see her every once in a while, making deals with the Big Guy over things out of her control. In my head, I can still remember her and my dad weeping next to my bed to God when I was 5 years old and on the verge of leaving this world too soon. I can remember the tears my mother wept before meeting Rick and being a single mother. I can remember her plenty of times, talking to God about getting patience in dealing with me as a teenager. So the more I stopped and really thought about it... I came to realize... that everyone that was sitting in this little church of mine, where there because of a promise someone else made with the Big Guy. I know that's far out there, but really... it's awesome when you think about it.
Years ago... long before your mother and father... someone in your history, prayed over you. Prayed for your future and prayed for your soul. To me... that is just a crazy thought! Every home is built on promises and prayers that a earlier generation did. Come on... that has to blow your socks off.

Something else Vaughn said today that got me thinking "WOW, I matter to my God", was the idea that every prayer I make effects the aroma of Heaven. Are you serious, my little prayers or discussions with God... make a difference in heaven and the way it smells. See... there are these pillars or bowls you might say filled with insenses in heaven and with each prayer that you make. Those insenses display your prayer in smoke. That is why, one of the wise men gave Jesus Frank and scents. Back in the day, they use to do incenses to represent their prayers going up to heaven... Well, in heaven they still do this and think about it... their smoking every time you pray. WOW... that's crazy to me.

However.... that got me wondering back to some of my "not so amazing moments in prayer" and wondered... in those moments where I battle it out with God and have little issues with HIS purpose and my purpose not meeting... I wonder if those moments make heaven not smell so sweet But after hearing Zechariah's story, I realized that God wants us to be real. God loves that I come to Him with my worries, concerns and yes, every once in while battle. That shows that I acknowledge that He is the All-Powerful and I know that He is the only one that can make a difference in my life! It also makes you aware of your own issues.

So basically the more I heard Vaughn's sermon today... the more I thanked God for loving me and my little "tina moments". I might never be prefect or even come close to it, but God will fill all those areas where I am lacking. This then makes me realizes something about all my friends and those amazing people who always tell me... "Christina, I'm just trying to get somethings together before going back into the church." Hello, God accepted me the way I was and He did the spring cleaning for me. God wants to enter our lives right now and "help" you become the Promise that someone in your past prayed about! Your a promise and FYI... I made a deal with God too about you... I want all my friends to know His love like I do. I love you all!