Laziness with the Season!

As winter approaches and my electric bill rises faster then I can understand. I have come to realize that people get crazy during these last few months of the year. It's like we have this bank of nuttiness that we need to use up and it's on a time limit. I just can't understand it at all.

With my move and the crazy other things that I find myself busy with, I have been dealing with some crazy situations. People in stores actually running down my daughter with their wheelchair. I was hit by an older man with his cane because I didn't move fast enough... mind you the crowd in front of me was at a stand still. I was at the post office! The store clerks cursing at me because life didn't turn out like they thought it would and for some weird reason... I am the easiest to lash out at. Then watching the news and seeing all the craziness that happened on Black Friday. People being trampled to death because of sale prices and Black Friday Specials. Watching the stocks go from bad to worst right in front of ours. Hearing people say that they have lost everything in just one day. I am just blown away and honestly, am finding it hard to explain to my daughter what is going on anymore. I can't just tell her anymore... people are just mean sometimes because they have bad days. Now it's getting to the point where I am finding myself scared to raise my daughter.

However with all this said... I was floored a couple days ago by our world and society. My mother's old client and friend, Ken, got jumped by three teenage guys and had his face slashed by a knife. Then not only that... they steal his $27 of groceries and $7 of change he had left. This gentleman, lives on a fixed income. So even though, that $7 doesn't sound like a lot to most of us... To him... that's a weeks worth of income for him. When I visited Ken in the hospital, I really found it hard to comfort him. I found it hard not to be mad. I found it hard not to think badly about those guys. I know the bible says to turn the other cheek but in these moments, can we have a little moment of anger! Can I be this mad! I know anger is poison to our soul but sometimes... I think God has to understand. Otherwise... I am in deep doo-doo. :) God please heal this anger heart of mine. Please help me see it through your eyes... Please just help soften my heart for even the "special" people I am mad at! Thank you for reading and please pray for Ken!